You'll know when you're dead

WARNING: Please do not continue reading if you have anxiety regarding death and mortality. 

The title is self-explanatory; scientists have determined that you may actually enter death aware of your own demise for a while after your body has shut down. See article here.

Isn't this one of the most fascinating things? When I read this horror and thrill battle for my attention. It sparks the morbid parts of my imagination, that there's a step after the final plunge out of existence. If you look at it through an artist's eyes anyway. 

Please don't misunderstand me; seeing beauty death does not (necessarily) mean that one wishes to die. Life is hard but still precious. Death is final and frightening, but it's also beautiful and a natural state that is something shared by every human being.

To quote my favorite song: "The end is all that's ever true."

The frightening marvel of it has always fascinated me, and scientific discoveries like this one is one step closer to accept finality. At least to me. There's a certain beauty of another piece added to the most mysterious aspect of our existence. 

What do you think? Does it fill your mind with fright or wonder? Or both? 

Sincerely from the dark abyss, 

Tanja

A crusade against superficiality

Hello there bats and ghouls!

I'm hoping third time's a charm. I've been trying to keep blogs in the past but fell out of it due to life. Shit happens I guess.

This time I'm not going to focus on makeup as I did before when I was working as a makeup artist.

Besides, I feel that the goth subculture have been hollowed out by this superficial surface that hides the real, darkness enshrouded substance below and reduces it to no more than a chase for sponsorships and likes and masses of subscribers on *insert any social media platform*.

Because goth is not a chocolate Easter bunny with a pretty packaging, some sweet layer and then carved hollow inside of that. Shrek says it best when he says that ogres are like onions, with layers.

Goth is an onion to (but less smelly).

Just like one of my favorite Youtubers, Angela Benedict, I'm on the mission of bringing goth back to life. Unfortunately I do not share her experience of goth as a teen, of the importance of the music and of hanging out with friends who loves the beauty in darkness as much as I do. No, that's not what it was like for me.

As a teen I was completely lost but constantly walking on the line between goth (which I didn't know existed back then) and just being weird. Had I discovered the music back then, the clubs and the people, I had found myself already then.

But again, due to life, due to being socially incompetent, due to living in a tiny town and being more or less self-providing, living on about $90 a month once rent was paid, I never got to experience those things.

And that's why I want to revive the life of goth, the soul and the experience. I want lost, darkly inclined teens find this, and I also want to experience it myself. In real life as much as possible, but also bring substance to goth in the online world, not just eye candy.

So if you are interested in following my holy crusade, just hang around. I have no idea where this will end but hopefully I'll make some friends on the way. :)

Sincerely from the dark abyss,
Tanja